Day 59

Day 59 and I am still doing great with my mission for this year. Honestly I don’t think about it right now and only when the weekends come and I hang out a bit does it even enter my mind. I think I am in a great place. Now as for my weight I have not gone into the gym for a week now and I know I have pick up about 5 pounds at least. My work schedule has been crazy the past couple weeks and it started to take a toll on my workout schedule. I started trading sleep for working out because I was putting in 16 hour work days these past couple weeks. It has really put a strain on my body and has completely disrupted my heating habits. I do not eat on any regular time schedule and it makes it hard to eat healthy when I am really hungry and have not eaten for 6 to 10 hours at time. I usually end up eating fast food. The outrageous hours are over for now so I hope I can get myself back onto a regular schedule. Here we go!!!

Day 52

Day 52 and I gained a couple pounds over the weekend. It comes as no surprise because I basically ate anything that was around me. I did not eat a 4^th meal at all but my choices for my 3 meals a day and snacks along the way were pretty bad. I think some of it is coming from my mood these days. I should be all smiles and positive right now but I am not. I am having issues with the wife, normal marriage stuff I guess, but it is really affecting my mood and my eating. I just don’t know how to fix everything in the home and it really does have an effect on my weight and eating. Being in a funk is not fun at all. You always want to start to throw a pity party for yourself but you know that wont help but it makes no difference. You invite people to the party and hope they feel sorry for you to. I hate these times and hope I get out of it soon. Don’t know if there is a fix for the marriage issues right now or ever so accepting things as they are seems to be my only option. A messed up option no matter how I look at it but it is my life. I said a long time ago once in a poem I wrote (in 1995) that all I want is peace and my mind to rest… well I am still looking for that. Tough start to my week but as I would say in a situation like this… ONWARD.

Day 49

Day 49 and I am down to 203. It is a great feeling to know that I can maintain what I am doing long term and still be down around 203. The verdict is still out as it pertains to 190 and the way I am eating and working out so I guess we will have to see. I am still not eating a meal after dinner but I am not 100% focused on content for the rest of the meals I eat. That is the next big step. I think I will need to evaluate what I am eating throughout the day. I know that this is probably the only way I will get down to 190 and stay there.

I am in a bit of a funk these days -me and the wife and I are getting on each others nerves. I think it is normal stuff but it is affecting my mood right now. Through it though I have been able to focus on the game plan right now so I am proud of myself. In the past I have let problems with the wife influence how dedicated I am to myself. I hope the funk goes away soon.

Day 47

Day 47 – wow time just flies by so fast. My weight is 205 and I am extremely happy with where I am at with everything. My eating this week has not been all that great content wise, but I still have not had a meal after dinner. I believe this is a big reason why my weight continues to drop.

It is very interesting how my life is going this year… I am doing vastly different things now that I am not drinking these days. It appears some of the people in my life were there because of casual drinking. Very interesting. I knew things would be different but I had no idea it would flush out things like this… Like I have said I will return to having a drink here or there but this time already has shown me some things and it will continue to I suppose. ONWARD!

Day 45

Heart Day… The made up holiday to spend money… If we are doing our jobs we don’t need a holiday to hand out flowers, gifts, and cards. I don’t spend money on this day and I do not end up in the dog house for it. WHY? Because I try and make lots of days valentines day and do special things all the time.

206 this is a really good weight. It means I maintained my weight over the weekend which is a notorious time to gain a pound or two. I am happy and there seems to be a rhythm these days with my day to day activities. I wanted to report out on something  PATRICK (click on his name to see the post) asked us to post last week…

This week my eating plan contains – NO FOOD AFTER DINNER – MAYBE LIGHT FRUIT SNACK… ACHIEVED!!!
This week I will take a box of toothpicks and – MAKE A STICK FIGURES WITH MY KIDS… not exactly… Two of my kids have February birthdays so we combined them to have one party and had 30+ kids there… um I wish I had made stick figures… that party wore me out
This week my exercise will consist of M/W/F 40 MINUTE ELLIPTICAL WORKOUTS… ACHIEVED!!!
This week when I stumble from plan I will immediately – CRY THEN BLOG TO PATRICK AND TELL HIM ALL MY FEELINGS ABOUT IT. Did not stumble so I did not need to cry to Patrick.
This week I will take that odd-sock from the laundry and – TOSS IT – YUKE. DONE!!!
This week I will challenge myself to try – AND NOT EAT AFTER DINNER… ACHIEVED!!!
This week I imagine myself punching the snot out of MYSELF! Did not falter so I did not punch myself!!!

Day 42

206 and my weight is slowly dropping.  It is important to note here that I have done nothing different in my day to day activities except that I have stopped eating a 4^th meal each day. Diet and Exercise is the key to a healthy life. One without the other will just not get the job done in the long run. Today I stepped up my workout a bit and I am a little sore but as I have said in the past I love the way my body hurts after a good workout!!!

One thing that I am starting to notice about my routine is that I really enjoy the workout days and I really enjoy my days off! I think for now the formula is working and I will stick with it.

I am going to do a little Patrick now and ask you to tell me what your formula is right now that is or is not working for you!!!

ONWARD!!!

Day 40

207 – that is great to see! It has a lot to do with me not eating after dinner… I have successfully not eaten after dinner for two straight days. Now when I say eat what I really mean is eating a true "MEAL" after dinner. I started eating a full meal around 9:30/10:00 at night. I am not sure why but I was getting hungry and eventually a snack turned into a full meal. Now that I am focusing on this meal I need to eliminate the weight is coming down. I have not done anything different in my day to day except for eliminating my forth full meal of the day.

This does not come as a surprise because when I lost all my weight the first time around I was not eating full meals at night. Somehow I just lost my way for a little while. Good to be back on track.

ONWARD people ONWARD!!!!

Day 39

No food after Dinner!!! I went into the bedroom and forced myself to go to sleep at 8:30pm. I hope I do not have to keep this strategy but I made it through one day!

Day 38

Day 38 and I made it through the superbowl… Well I was at home so it was not that difficult – I did not make it out to any superbowl parties. So as you can see I have gained a couple pounds and it is no surprise. I received great input from my friend Patrick in response to my post on Friday. I will think on it for a bit… The truth is that I have just not decided to deal with my eating and I am walking around just trying to stay blind to it. It is working and I just continue to eat. I continue to eat at all hours and anything I can get my hands on. I do not eat constantly but I do eat a bunch of the wrong stuff and certainly at the wrong hours. I think I need to start with no eating after dinner and decide to just start doing it. I have been working out regularly now and it appears that the workouts are keeping me from gaining a lot of weight. So I am happy that I have decided to work out regularly but I am disappointed that I just can't get off my butt and start to deal with my eating habits. When I post Wednesday, after my workout, hopefully I will be able to tell everyone that I did not eat after dinner and have some things to say about that.

Day 35

Today I weighed in at 209. I thought I would have gained a pound but I am glad to see the 209. To be honest I have not started to focus on my eating habits yet. I am not sure why. I know this is the only way I will get myself back down to 190 but the motivation is not there. I still have a huge motivation for not drinking and working out M/W/F but for some reason I just have not pulled it together to start. Anyone out there have any insight? Been there before and can give me some pointers? I want to but the desire is not there.

Other than that I am doing well. Family and work is going well. I am blessed and I am happy right now.