Day 119 of 365

Day 119 of 365 / Day 12 of 30 and I'm feeling a little better than the past few days. Some family issues along with my invention progress taking a halt has fuel this. I have a couple more meetings set up and I had some discussions with family members so I am able to breathe a little now. I still need more thought on my post yesterday…

Day 118 of 365

Day 118 of 365 still good – Day 11 of 30 still good! Yesterday I did make it out to the gym and I weighed in at 211. I was really busy and have been going through some things lately. My resolve on my journey is being tested. Some things are just not going the way I want them to.

Question - What do people do when they become stressed? How do people handle stress in life? This is a question that justifies most bad actions for people. People use eating, drinking, abuse, drugs, and the list goes on. My sister recently had a disk in her spine that ruptured and is in a lot of pain. She smokes and there has been research that links smoking to back pain and spinal deterioration. She has been going through back pain for years and has been smoking for years as well. She is in the hospital right now and says that it's just too hard to quit smoking. The stress of her life is such that she needs this outlet. Considering the alternative I just don’t understand why we decide to hurt ourselves more when we are going through stressful periods in our life and are already hurting. I am no angel and have justified stress relievers of my own – but why do we need to do this? We want the pain to go away – numb it - most of the time we just don’t care how we just want it to go away. We are a society of "get it right now". Pleasure and stress relief are at the top of the list. How do we condition our brains to go in a different direction? I just don’t know. I will be giving this some thought over the next few weeks.

Day 115 of 365

Day 115 of my Original Journey and Day 8 of my new Fast Food Challenge! Easter weekend went by and everything is still good with my journey this year. Usually this time of year gets a lot of hangin out and drinks with Family. Not this year! O.K. so I am still good with my Fast Food challenge but Oh Boy I ate up some stuff this weekend at My families celebration and my Wife's Family celebration. I only gained one pound and that is just crazy. I would have never believed it but I saw it with my own eyes this morning on the scale. To be completely honest I could have called it 211 anyway. Let me explain… what I usually do to determine my weight is that I get on the scale and the pointer circles around until it settles on a weight. If the pointer is even a fraction above the weight line I will call it the next full pound. Today, the pointer was just barely over 211 so I had to call it 212 but in all actuality I stayed the same weight from my weigh in on Wednesday.

Family always adds some interesting twists to holidays and my family added some. What I have grown to accept is that you can only control what you do in life and be happy with what and how you are living. Really there is nothing else. So I had to brush off some things and keep it moving. Nothing can get in the way of what I am going to accomplish this year. The path in front of me is so clear that I could paint that path in a real life Picasso and convince people it was one of his!!!

Onward!!!

Day 110 of 365

Day 110 and all is well. I got to the gym and in two days I dropped a couple pounds. Current weight 211. I am applying past failures to this current journey and I am stronger now. I am not eating meals after dinner, trying to keep with reduced fat and calorie foods, and working out three times a week. PLUS, I am three days into my no fast food or pizza 30 day challenge. The posted picture shows the ups and downs and I am guessing it is pretty typical of most people go through. I am trying not to be most people anymore and get down to a weight and stay there!!!

Onward People!!!

Day 108 of 365

This is a good day! I got my butt out to the gym this morning AND I have started my next 30 day challenge with no fast food that will include Pizza as well. I always feel awesome at work after working out in the morning. I want to sit down and think about why I would decide not to workout everyday if this is how I feel afterwards. I am more confident at work, more energetic, and just all around feeling better about myself no mater what is going on in my life.

So my weight… well it was just a little higher than I had hope but certainly better than where I thought I was. 213. That’s not a bad weight but it is 23 pounds over my target weight and needs an all out effort to get myself back there. Today was a good step in the right direction. I got down to my target weight the middle of August and now it is the middle of April. I picked up 23 pounds in 8 months. Looking at it like that I guess it's not too bad but it is still not a good thing. I have to find a way to maintain my weight. My first go at it failed and I need to really understand why so that when I get back down to 190 I can keep it there.

As I like to say… ONWARD!!!

Day 103 of 365

103 Days and counting… It really feels good that I have been able to battle the temptations and keep with my 365 day journey. This past weekend was a big weekend in the journey. Friday the wife and I went to the Casino and did not have to worry about kids the next day. We won over 1000 bucks and had plenty to celebrate… from the re-kindled love, to not having kids around, to winning over 1000 bucks. We had plenty to celebrate and in the end I stuck with my cranberry juice and red bull cocktails! There was even a point where we went to the room of some of her co-workers (who were all drinking and had more than just a few drinks) and spent some time there with them. Everyone was drinking and in all honesty I really didn’t have any thoughts about wanting to at all. It was interesting being on the other side of it. THEN came Saturday where I hung out with my friends from my hometown and ended up at a couple bars and dance clubs. There has never been a time where I visited spots like that and didn’t have a least one drink… That was a bit difficult but in the end my journey is still on course and I have a couple new stories to tell. Funny that I never noticed how bad peoples breaths smell while they are drinking at the bars and dance clubs…

Now to get to my weight, eating, and working out. I have got myself to a point where I am disappointed in myself. My weight is probably up around 215, I broke the fast food streak, and I am not working out at all. I feel weighted down. I have made a promise to myself that I am getting back into the weight room starting 4-18-11. This is the new start date for Fast Food, Pizza (including pizza rolls), and working out. I don’t like where I am at physically and mentally and most if not all of it has to do with my eating and working out.

As I like to say so often… ONWARD!!!

Day 94 of 365

Day 94 and still on track. Day 32 of my 30 day Fast food challenge and I was successful in that challenge. I think I am going to continue on with it and in a week or so add pizza to the list.

Today marks a new day for my job responsibilities here at work. I moved facilities and I am working on a new program now. Change always feels strange but it is the one constant in life and I don’t mind it so much. I have to find out what all I am going to be responsible for and begin diving in. It should be interesting and should keep me busy and keep my mind off of food and other distractions.

ONWARD!!!

Day 91

Day 91 and it is no joke (April 1^st). 91 days for my libation journey and 29 days into my Fast Food Challenge. I can honestly say that the fast food challenge is helping keep my weight steady. My home scale is saying I am keeping a steady weight of 205-210. I believe it has everything to do with keeping the fast food junk out of my body. I will need to speak with my friend to see if we can extend our original challenge as well as adding another part to it.

I have not determined a starting day for my workouts. The wife and I have not talked yet to determine a good starting day. I am looking forward to it. I NEED to get my but back in the gym. My body is feeling a bit weak lately and I don’t like it.

Everything else is going good – I can't complain.