So I made it to the gym this morning. I love how I feel after working out. What a feeling. However, I never had such a battle inside of me like I did over the past 5 hours. Even before the alarm went off at 4:45 I was already telling myself I was not getting up to go work out. At 3:30 I woke up and really did not go back to sleep after that. In the end I fought off all the I don’t wannas and feeling sorry for myself and made it in. The workout was difficult. I took some days off from working out so it was hard to pick right back up where I left off. I do not take a step back when I take some time off. I always keep my reps, weight, and times exactly where I was the last time. If forces me to realize that I have lost a step and need to have consistency.
I was surprised to see the scale at 193 today. I was sure I was around 196 or 197 considering all the late night eating and drinks I have had over the past week of rest. I guess it will take more than a week of feeling sorry for myself to self destruct. I don’t know what the next few weeks will hold. All I know is that I need to focus on the big picture and fix what is wrong with my eating habits, self happiness (different from self esteem I think I have plenty of that), and financial spending/saving habits.
I would like to wish Patrick sustained energy on his journey – you continue to be an inspiration with your day to day activities, Rapunzel the strength to get through a few more days at which point things will come natural, and Dawn energy for getting over some life issues and feeling a bit worn the past week. ONWARD PEOPLE!